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i woke up at around 12 today. and so far i have done nothing except search the web. i have a sad life, and i'm not happy yet. today was a nice day too, i should have gone jogging but i felt gross. i want to have fun, be free, be real for once in this life. i mean you do only have one life to live, so why not make the best out of it. i'm going to workout and stuff. be productive everyday now. because i want to do something that will be worth remembering in the future. up to now, nothing in my life is worth remembering. except the few friends i've made that seem to always be there. i guess i have just been blaming my past for everything, but it's really just me. i've been trying to find myself out forever. who i am, who i want to be, and the good things about me. to truly understand things, i have to understand myself and where i stand.

recently i found this site titled 'how to discover your life purpose in about 20 minutes." the title is misunderstanding, funny, but when i read about it, it was kind of.. inspiring. it was a blog, and the author wrote around 4 steps. take out a blank sheet of paper/open up a blank word document, at the top put what is my life purpose?, write any answers that pop into your head, and repeat. then, he says repeat the third step until you find one that just breaks you, making you cry. that is your life purpose. i think it's interesting. his final answer to his life purpose was "to live consciously and courageously, to resonate with love and compassion, to awaken the great spirits within others, and to leave this world in peace." truly inspiring, huh?