summer

i can't help but think summer's not all what it's hyped up to be anymore. my sister said summer is short

in high school. i dont know if i'm ready for next year.

summer used to mean hanging out with my best friends, late nights at parties, beach days, jellyfishing (hahah), watching fireworks at wolly on the 4th, getting closer to a lot of new people, manhunt at night, window shopping and intensely shopping, funny conversations, staying up on the phone until like 5am, stickamming, playing stupid games, and maybe even some bitch fights, but we got through them.

to me, summer is now tanning in my backyard with my sister, helping around the house, staying up until 2am IMing boston friends, stickamming until we're all sickly bored or lagging, no late parties, no hanging out with best friends, and is ultimately sad. 

i miss what summer used to mean. but i guess what i really need is to move on. it's never going back to what it used to be. the tans fade, but the memories last forever, right? ..